Thursday, January 7, 2010

2:35 a.m.

I'm sitting here in my dark room. It's 2:35 a.m. and I can't seem to get to sleep. I had a full day of working, tutoring after that, and then rushed home to get ready for the Clippers vs Lakers game, I took my dad, bro, and Kevin for Christmas. it was fun and my dad was super excited, but the Lakers just couldn't seem to make any baskets. sucks. And, I drank some soda at the game, which is the reason why I'm up. late.

After watching 4 episodes of Gossip Girl (my new favorite guilty pleasure) I decided to write. Looking back on this sad excuse for a blog, I noticed I hadn't posted anything since November!! Pretty pathetic, I know. Much has happened, too much to write it all down. But my highlights consists of the holidays with the fam bam, the bf, and my friends.

And now, it's 2010. What year is it? hah... 2010. I'm excited for this new year. After 28 years of my life, my resolutions seem to stay pretty constant: Lose weight. Draw closer to God. Enjoy life. Lose weight. Nothing's really changed for this coming year.

I'm excited for everything that's in store for me. I'm excited to experience life. I'm excited to live through the new pages God has written. It's all so exciting. I know it's going to be a great year.

I read through an old journal entry from January 1, 2009. I'm such a different person. My thoughts are different. My desires are different. My life is different. For a while I was struggling, wrestling with that. How can I be so different? Who was that person one year ago? Who was I one year ago? Why am I so different? Am I better? Are these changes for the good? For my good? For good? ,,,

That's too many questions for so early in the morning. So for now, I'll try to rest my brain and sleep. If not, maybe another episode of GG will lull me to sleep. XoXo... kidding. 2:46 a.m.

1 comment:

Michael said...

i used to watch gossip girl, then I stopped, cause I didn't care for the stories, I only looked at the girls.