May 12, 2003

Alright...what was I saying? So...I've been "eating" the Word of God way more and am now way more nourished. Thank You, Lord. Right now I'm going through Romans with my small group and the books that Peter wrote: 1st-3rd Peter. God's been totally using these books to change my heart and get me thinking about missions again. Oh, I've also been reading "Let the Nations be Glad" by John Piper (thanks, Peej, for letting me borrow it for umm...many months now). But all of these readings have been great and have been changing me heart and mind in regards to missions. I'm praying to see where the Lord will lead me in the future... Maybe the Philippines? Maybe India (as some ppl at church think that this is where the Lord's gonna send me...but NO! I didn't sign any contract!). Maybe the Lord will just keep me in the US. Either way...Lord, I'm your servant and am excitedly anticipating where in the world you want me. Whereever that may be, Lord, may I go boldly, proclaim Your gospel, and glorify You.

*** I came across this on an old blog I used to write in during college. wow...that was almost 4 years ago...and the Lord has been chaging, molding, and burning in me this passion for missions. 4 years and now it seems like the doors are opening. Praise God!! This definitely makes me smile! =)

My To Do List...

DONE - Research various organizations

DONE - Email different organizations

DONE - Print out application forms

___ Email regarding the summer term, finding out results

DONE - Talk to principal about next year's plans

___ Finish filling out application form

___ Finish filling out health form

DONE - Go to doctor's office/hospital to get TB test

___ Get results of my TB test

___ Write out a check

___ Send the application

DONE - Give out Employee refernce form

___ Give out Pastoral reference form

___ Give out friend reference form

___ Pray...pray...pray...

___ Hear results

___ Pray more

___ Talk to principal and parents (???)

___ Pack my bags (???)

___ Say good-bye (???)

DONE - SMILE and trust God's perfect plan

___ SMILE and trust God's perfect plan...

Change, change, change...

change is good...

I need a new haircut...already! argh! I hate my hair... =()

I'm ready...

to fly! I'm getting my wings ready, making my legs strong for a fast take off, and trusting on the Holy Spirit to lead me through the sky.

I think it's time...I ready to fly!

To the Left, to the Left...

haha...life's a little greener to the left. =) The left field makes me smile...

One day...

Finding contenment in the LORD and all He is for me. Praise God I'm really loving this time of singleness and using it to do all I can to glorify His name. I'm more and more excited to work with the Youth and continue to walk alongside them. They're crazy, but I love them! God is working in them and I praise God for the changes I see. The Holy Spirit is working...

Epiphany of the Week: I truly want to be with someone who I can be an "ambassador" with. I pray for someone who has the mindset that we are just passing through this world; this earth is not our home, but while we are here, we should live to glorify God. I desire someone who has a heart to serve and pour out his heart for the ministry, for others, for the sake of the gospel and the glory of God. I would like someone who encourages me to continue to serve and to press on; when I'm down and tired, I want him to remind me and lovingly rebuke me to love others and be compassionate for the lost. When I'm stressed out or disheartened, I want someone who will remind me of who Christ is and how He has everything planned out and all I need to do is trust Hiim.

When I start hanging out with someone, my closest friends always ask me "What about missions? Does he have a heart for missions?" Lately, my answer has been "no" or "I'm not sure." I pray that one day when I'm asked that question, I can say that He has a heart to serve, a heart for missions, a heart for the lost, a heart that is sold out for Christ. One day...if the Lord wills. Until then, I praise God that my contentment in the Lord is growing and He is reminding me that I have Him. What more do I need? HE is all satisfying. With HIM, I will never thirst, never grow hungry. Because of this, I smile...

"R" is for Righteous

Everything God thinks, says, and does is right because God always values what is most valuable - Himself.

"His work is perfect, for all His ways are just...Righteous and upright is He." Deuteronomy 32:4

God's righteousness makes me smile...